It takes a lot to shake me up and it also takes a lot to excite me. I am always searching for things that will make me feel alive. I want to live fully and feel fully, whether that means laughing till my abs ache, crying until I can't cry anymore or doing something crazy that totally scares the heck out of me. Whatever it takes, I am always looking for that adrenaline rush, that emotion, that adventure. I have a fear of growing numb to emotion... or just surviving instead of really thriving. I could spend my whole life chasing after thrill and adrenaline.
But recently I came to this realization: a relationship with Christ, in itself, can be the adventure of a lifetime if I run after that with my whole heart. There is no adventure greater than the adventure that comes with giving my whole self to Jesus and letting Him take me to places I would never go alone. With Him, I can feel with my whole heart, I can have fullness of JOY and He will definitely bring me to do things that scare the heck out of me.
I'm learning that God loves when we live fully alive; he delights in his children enjoying life. I'm sure He loves when we climb His mountains and when we parasail high into His sky...and I'm sure He'll love it when I get to skydive one day. ;) But most importantly, He loves it when I surrender myself to Him and His work. I no longer have to chase after temporary pleasures and things to "fill me up." God's desire for me is to live fully alive in Christ, because only there will I find true contentment, true adventure, and true life.
(And the cool thing about it is I don't even have to write out a bucket list for these adventures - he's had them planned for me since before I was born!)
I don't know what God has planned for my life, in fact I don't even know what he has planned for my tomorrow... but what I do know is that whatever it is, it will be full of the thrill, emotion, and adventure that I'm always searching for and my hope can always be found in Christ alone.
"You make known to me the path of life; you fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand." ~Psalm 16:11
